The walk back to Cebolla's apartment was a quiet one. Kristen walked behind as Cebolla led the way. Having calmed down and feeling the comfort of her home, Cebolla undid her hair as she walked through the front door.
Cebolla sat down on the couch while Kristen stood by the entrance and as Ringtail played in the corner with his toy.
Kristen approached as Cebolla spoke the first words since they left her parents home.
"I'm sorry that was -"
"That was embarrassing" Kristen cut her off, her raised voice startling Cebolla. She reached her breaking point.
Cebolla stood up. In trying to avoid an argument she walked towards the other room.
Kristen wasn't letting her walk away. "Did you really have to start a fight with my Dad?"
Taking the bait, she turned around. "He started it and by the way, thanks for blindsiding me with who your Dad is"
"You blindsided me, tonight was supposed to go differently."
"Instead you're arguing with my Dad and casually dropped that you got expelled"
"Does that embarrass you?"
"Only because you've been lying to me. You've told me you had class, and even used it as an excuse before."
"I didn't tell you cause it's something I'm ashamed about"
"How long has it been?" Kristen questioned
"...since before I met you" Cebolla admitted
"So you've been lying to me since then?"
"You were lying too! Why didn't you tell me about your dad?"
"Cause you wouldn't have agreed to come.You're always complaining about him"
"I would've considered it for you. Your dad, he just hates me. He thinks I'm pathetic"
"You don't think you proved him right?"
Cebolla flinched, that one hurt.
Seeing her reaction, Kristen immediately regretted it. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that" In reality it's how she's been feeling around her parents.
"I just wanted my parents to see that I am making good choices and I'm not a let down."
"So this was just about you impressing them?"
That frustrated her, "It was about showing them I care about my future, and the person I wanted to share it with. You said you can't even think about that"
"I do think about it. It's just, something's in the way before I can really start planning. I have to keep waiting before I even apply online for a diploma"
Kristen was still in disbelief that Cebolla never told her. "I'm your girlfriend. You should've trusted me enough to tell me that before, not tonight"
"What difference would it have made? Or was it so you could break up with me beforehand to keep up with appearances?" Cebolla jabbed
Kristen shook her head, that got under her skin. She quit the swimming team she was in over how they treated Cebolla. She thought that proved that she did in fact care. Now she was just done.
"If you really believe that of me, then I can't be with you"
Part of her really hoped Cebolla said something to stop her, but instead she was too prideful.
"Fine" She said bitterly, " I'm not gonna stop you"
Ringtail watched from the kitchen counter as Kristen stepped out.
Note: I just want to say, Kristen isn't shallow as she may be coming off. Up to this point she's been getting 'not good enough' moodlets and feeling like she was letting her parents down. She really wanted to prove Johan wrong especially with Cebolla. She just reached her point where's it feels like everything is falling apart and out of control, that her pent up frustration has boiled over.
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